Obviously Amy hasn't been reading our blog! In her last post on Friday stated that she has been away and hasn't made an entry in a while, but thanked me for continuing to keep the blog updated! I haven't made a post since May 13! Pay attention Amy!
The reason that I hadn't created any new entries is personal. Most people who know me think that I don't have any feelings but that is far from the truth (ha ha!) when I last created an entry it was creeping up on the 15th anniversary of my accident. Although I have a ton to be thankful for, there were some recent situations that really frustrated me on the inside. I went to a couple of kids birthday parties and hung out with my nephew a couple of times. The kids were running around, playing on the swing set, trying to shoot a basketball and kick a soccer ball for the first times. It hurts deep inside that I'm not able to pick up my nephew and swing him around, wrestle with him, take him out, or even hold him without having someone keep an eye out in case he falls off my lap. It bothers me that I can't show him how to kick a soccer ball, play with a basketball, or throw a baseball. Who's he going to learn it from? His father? This is uncle territory!
I'm done having my little pity party. I'm going back to emotional lock down. Goodbye.
You still write more than I do! :-) And don't you dare go into emotional lock-down, mister. This is a gratitude blog - gratitude for the tiniest thing in the midst of our sorrow, that's the whole point. I'll help you get started. You have an amazing little nephew who loves you no matter what. He will be in your life for the rest of your life. He thinks you are amazing just because you're his uncle and you love him back. You will probably make him feel very, very special in ways you can never imagine. You are loving him EXACTLY the way he needs to be loved, so love that and be grateful for the opportunity to be an uncle. And yes, anniversaries of terrible dates are hard - but they are no different from any other day of the year so don't let them define you or your life. Let them pass by like a leaf on the surface of the stream and then look for what is coming next. Something wondrous is always coming next. XOXO to you, Nate.
ReplyDeleteThank you Amy, you couldn't have said that any better! And Nathan, you have so many fun gadgets that intrigue David far more than any sport... after all, he is a little techy in the making! And the fact that your chair is "normal" to him, well thats a lesson neither Dave or I had to teach. Just think of the compassion he'll have for others with disabilities at such an early age. You're showing him what life is really about... and I'll stop watching him so closely!!! OK!!!! That's just new mama... chair or no chair. We love you Nate... Uncle Buttons!
ReplyDeleteUncle buttons!!! I love that! Nate, you are so loved and so inspirational and so strong. YOU are here to teach, and I'm not talking about MATH, either!
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And thanks Beth! I'm glad you all have each other, the Bourques are a beautiful family!